Mellen (absentmammoth) wrote,

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The most wonderful time of the year...

There was a time when we all loved Christmas. Do you remember that? You weren't worried about anything but sleeping long enough for the presents to magically materialize under the tree and getting the stuff we really wanted.

I remember when Christmas stopped being magical. I was in 5th or 6th grade, I think, and I stayed up until a little past midnight. I watched the day change from Christmas Eve to Christmas, and then, it was all over. Nothing happened. It wasn't like I had believed in Santa, or anything magical to really happen...but this was just so mundane. It was just another day. Christmas just started to go downhill from there. I no longer look at it as a time of fun, but merely a deadline.

The only thing I'm really looking forward to this year is the time off from school. Time to spend with my friends who will be home for just a little while...friends who, for the most part, really don't want to be here. No one wants to be home, let alone for Christmas. It's kinda sad, but I see why they don't want to come home. I probably wouldn't want to either.

I'm trying to look forward to this year's Christmas. I try to remember what it was that made it fun. Somehow, I just can't do it. I guess it's just one of those things you lose with your baby teeth and training wheels.

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    i'm not dead, just boring.

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