Mellen (absentmammoth) wrote,

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All I want is for your to flay someone and give me their skin, is that so much to ask?

Sometimes I think I shouldn't watch television. At least, not TV with commercials.

I'm watching TLC the other day, and this ad comes on, some new treatment for eczema. The woman on it has this perfect skin, not a spot on it. It blathers on about how "there is no cure, but you can treat it," yare yare yare.

First I get angry. No shit there's no cure, I've had the fucking stuff since I was about three years old. I've been treating it with all sorts of stuff since then to, none of it which really works. I want to yell that she has no idea what it's like to have severe eczema, probably any eczema for that matter.

Then, get this, I start to cry. Right now, I'm having the most severe breakout I have ever had. It's never been on my back before. It's never been on my face before. It's never itched, swelled, and hurt this much before. You don't know what I would give to have normal skin. Just plain, pale skin, without the scars, scabs and sores. I don't usually stress out about my eczema. Most people say they don't care, or that they really don't notice it. But I do, and once in a great while, it really upsets me. I spent about 20 minutes in the bathroom just hating my skin and crying.

I know I'm no Miss America, but I'm no Big Foot either. Now that this stuff is on my face really upsets me.

Thankfully, I had someone really wonderful and supportive there to help me feel better. I just wish my skin would follow suit.

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