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06 September 2007 @ 10:44 am
last night i had a wonderful dream. nothing about it was particularly remarkable, in actuality, but having it definitely affected me in a way i can't really pinpoint. but i feel overall much better than i did upon going to sleep.

i was feeling really down yesterday. after work, i slept almost the rest of the day, waking up for a few hours, during which mostly i read (Kafka on the Shore, which i have been intensely enjoying...while unconnected to my own dream, it wouldn't surprise me if the Murakami is having some effect).

in the dream, i went back to school. i met new people who were really people i already know altered to fit a new reality. i often dream of people in this way--a person i know, disguised by a difference of appearance and place. it happens to myself too, though in this dream i was definitely the current "me" i have come to accept as myself. i talked about memories that i really have with these people, and the real people they reminded me of. i vividly remember being carried on a friend's back through a field with a cemetary on the left-hand side, in order to find out where he hid his photography equipment. i wanted to hold his hand but i couldn't. so i just enjoyed being carried along. it turned out he'd placed his camera in some old stone steps. other little details like this filled up this world with a warm feeling of familiarity.

i woke up today feeling much better. a feeling of eloquence that was lacking has returned to my everyday activities. i'm again able to feel the flow in the movements of my body and how it intereacts with the world around it. i feel like i'm better prepared to handle myself, and the depression i was feeling has definitely abated.

why would this dream do this? i have no idea. but i like it, and i'm going to try and remember what it is that i feel now. strange how the subconcious works.
madbibliomancermadbibliomancer on September 6th, 2007 04:53 am (UTC)
You're reading Kafka on the Shore? Excellent. How far in are you?
Mellenabsentmammoth on September 6th, 2007 09:30 am (UTC)
it's the japanese published english translation, so the page numbers are different, but i'm on (unlucky) page 444, about 3/4th the way through, and nakata is sleeping after opening the entrance stone while kafka tamura heads for the cabin again.
Mandafee_b on September 6th, 2007 02:47 pm (UTC)
it is strange how dreams can affect your waking life. especially when I sleep for really long periods of time, they truly seem real, and are easy to integrate as such.

Glad you're feeling better. =)
herding virtual hedgehogsnessur on September 6th, 2007 09:42 pm (UTC)
Oh wow, I'm suddenly jealous that you're able to read Murakami in the original language. His writing style is already so hypnotic and engrossing, I can't imagine what a straight dose of him would do to me.

I've been sick for the past 2 days, and have devoured South of the Border, West of the Sun in that time. I find that most of his books unlock so many deeply rooted emotions in me, pieces of myself that I've forgotten along the way, that my dreams tend to become revelrous, magically during those book times.
Mellenabsentmammoth on September 6th, 2007 10:20 pm (UTC)
sadly, my skills are not yet good enough to fully read murakami in the original japanese. i'm reading an english translation still, it's simply the japanese publisher's english translated version rather than the american publisher. i probably could make a go at reading the original japanese (without stopping every minute to look up kanji) in something like 2 more years.
Not any Morepuck22 on September 6th, 2007 11:42 pm (UTC)
in some of the reading I've been doing, it suggests that dreams tend to fufill wishes, merely as a matter of funtionality. It's an a little antiquated to think of it this way, but every day chronic stress creates these little "cathexese" and one of the way Jung used to explain it (he always had a different explination for a different audiance) left me with the idea that your brain every night goes through and unties one of the cathexes or little mental knots, and if it's a knot that's been bothering you for a long time, it can be really gratifying. It doesn't neccessarely have anything to do with whats going on right now, or, at this point, anyting to do with reality at all. It just means, to put it is funny Brett Psudo-Science language, "A knot in your back, bubbled up to your head, and your dream rubbed it out."

Any way I've been thinking alot about stuff like that. Sorry if I sound crazy, or stupid, or way off topic.
Mellenabsentmammoth on September 7th, 2007 03:08 am (UTC)
Re: psychobabble
no way man, it's good to hear from you. sorry i've missed your messages. thanks for the little thought knot ^_^