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15 December 2003 @ 05:32 pm
A sudden rash of release...  
My body has become ridiculously good at channeling stress away from my brain and out of the body. Unlike a lot of people, I don't have a stress build up in my back or shoulders so much. I'm glad of this. Not only is it difficult to remove yourself, it's not far enough away. That stress in the back goes right back up the spine to the brain, I think.

Instead, my body releases stress through the skin. Although it's not a pretty sight to look at sometimes, as long as I keep my body temperature cool, it really helps. Eczema, my skin disease, is scientifically proven to be stress sensitive, so it gets worse when I have a high level of stress. However, by putting this through my skin, I'm able to release it, and keep my brain clearer. I'm still affected by high stress, but my body is doing its damnedest to try and help keep my mind intact. It works so well at times, though, that high stress sets EVERYTHING off.

Right now, I've got finals, work at the mall with insane holiday shoppers, my own shopping to do, and a myriad of other things that aren't worth mention here, but do actually affect me.

My body pulled out all the stops. I've got an eczema breakout, zits, cold sores on my tongue and upper lip (that one is nasty!), and my period (added stress-reliever bonus!).

I look a mess. But my mind is surprisingly clear, and when I need to write or study, I can focus without too much trouble.

I used to think my body hated me. Turns out, it's just really really really tough love.
Mood: stressed but under control...
Music: Spacehog - Starside
ex_randalgra425 on December 15th, 2003 03:32 pm (UTC)
i'll be home in two days, how about i kidnap you and we party and relax and all of that good stuff? when do you finish exams?
Mellenabsentmammoth on December 15th, 2003 03:39 pm (UTC)
Rock on. I'll be taking my last exam on Thursday morning, then I gotta move out and go to work. However, I'll be free most of Friday.
ex_randalgra425 on December 15th, 2003 05:14 pm (UTC)
good luck on exams. i don't know what my homecoming requirements are going to be when i get home (there are always those random appointments or family lunches i don't find out about til a few hours beforehand), but if you need help with the move let me know. we can get together when you're free, i'm around for 3 weeks so no rush if you're busy :)
That bitter, angry fuckhead from the futurehalopro on December 16th, 2003 02:37 am (UTC)
Heh, topical disorders as a leg-up on enlightenment?

I'll buy that.
Mellenabsentmammoth on December 16th, 2003 07:53 am (UTC)
Legs, arms and buttocks! I got this stuff EVERYWHERE!
That bitter, angry fuckhead from the futurehalopro on December 16th, 2003 04:51 pm (UTC)
Dunno what the deal with eczema is exactly, but I'm thinking it's one of the nasty dry and flaky things.

I do rock a good amount of tension in my shoulders and spine, which is actually where I've probably got the most persistent acne issues. This is getting me thinking : constant major muscle group tension would block proper lymph flow, yah? Whereas say some young lady didn't hold tension in the major muscle groups so much, but instead in the fine subdermal musculature (that stuff that gets tired as you age and eventually leads to crow's feet and whatnot), blocking proper circulation to the surface tissues. Lack of oxygen, water, and nutrients could produce those sorts of symptoms . . .

Mellenabsentmammoth on December 16th, 2003 09:59 pm (UTC)
No, not overthinking, just rethinking.

I just like to assume it's magic ^_~