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01 March 2001 @ 03:17 pm
So close yet so far...  
Today in psychology, I looked at the bulletin board Ms. Kirkpatrick has put up for seniors with our names and the colleges we'll be attending. It hit me looking at my own card...in about 3.5 months, I'll be in college. I'd realized it before, of course, but it just struck me funny. I'll have my own place to live, a roommate most likely, and the freedom to make my own choices.

People tease me sometimes because I'm going to school so close to home. However, for me, it's practically another world in the fact I don't have to put up with my parents there. Sure, it might be easier for them to come visit, but they can't get in unless I unlock the door ^_^. I won't have to get up for church early Sunday morning. I won't have to stop doing whatever it is I'm doing, be in homework or a movie, to do some task they assign to me. I won't have to put in ear plugs to keep my mother's voice out while I'm trying to do reading or thinking (No matter where you go in the house, if she's on the phone, you can hear her). I can have people stay the night, or go to their place to spend the night, and it doesn't matter with or where, no one but me gets to decide. Connecticut College lets me stay close to people living here that I care about, the opportunity for freedom, and my chance to study in Japan junior year. And I'll be going there in three and a half months. I'm looking forward to it.

Granted, I'm a little anxious. What if I get a bad roommate? What if I don't actually like the courses (highly unlikely...Conn and I seem to be a pretty good match academically...that's why I chose it)? Will my stupid parents let me get the damn computer I want (sorry, big gripe)? Will I do well on my own? It's new, and a little intimidating, but I can't wait to start. I got accepted, and that was the scariest part, and since that's over, let the rest of it begin.

In three and one half months I get to move 20 minutes away. And I couldn't be happier about it.
Mood: anxiousanxious
Music: L'Arc~en~Ciel - TIME SLIP
char-ka  : shock_rawhavva on March 1st, 2001 08:42 pm (UTC)
waiting for . . .
dear, i'm happy for you-- it really is as wonderful as you think .
Kaysylverice2 on March 2nd, 2001 03:26 pm (UTC)
Babe, it's not even ten. Seven. I swear, if it takes you twenty minutes to get to Conn, you're doing something wrong!

The freedom is wonderful...but school tends to be a lot like parents, in that it assigns you tasks to do when you'd rather be doing something else. College can go two ways. Good and bad. Dorm life is usually fun, unless you get a bad roommate and/or floormates.

But...somehow...it's worth it. If only to be able to say, "I'm free."