September 26th, 2006


my turn to gush

so i promised nihilanththis boy i would tell make a reply for him, because really, he deserves it. i'm tired, so mine won't have pictures, but maybe you should use your imaginations.

i've loved him since i was 15 years old. and the only thing i wanted to do was take him into myself and hold him close. and after eight years of waiting to hear what i knew was there, i can't imagine anything that would be better. i look into those eyes i've always loved, and i know that there is such an abundance of love there that i can't possibly try to ignore it. i see a reality that grows out of that feeling, and i can't help but believe in it. because it's not only beautiful, but it feels right.

he says i've inspired him, but the things i like about msyelf stem from way back when he was influencing me. i'm a better person because of what he did for me even as a confused teenager. it makes me happy to think i may have done the same for him without knowing it. i know he likes me because i see the best in him, and i like what i see. it's a person who will never let me down. a person who will care for me no matter what. a person i can build a future with. and that's exciting and scary just as much as it is comforting and beautiful. and it simply makes me amazed.

no matter how much time we have to spend apart, i'll always be thinking of you. and i can't wait to show you what it's like to be here and connect with you again in a seemingly different world. i love you. and that's all there is to it. we are here to get up and go with it.

it was because of your birthday i found this all out. so on mine, i want to thank you for it. and i look forward to spending the next one with you.
m.e. in nippon

happy to me!

as you probably know, yesterday was my birthday. i hadn't really made any plans in particular, but Kelly had mentioned something about going out for dinner, so that's what i expected would happen. around 6:30 she called me to say she was ready to head out, come on downstairs. i put on my birthday shirt (the engrish one that says i'm in a mature period was too perfect, i waited til yesterday to wear it) and headed down...

only to find a surprise party!! and i was completely surprised! it worked great! hehehe. all my friends from around the area were there, and they had made me tacos and a birthday cake and everything. they also gave me plenty of alcohol to drink (on a bad!!). we took a bunch of pictures, and when i have a little more time, i'll upload and post some to show everyone because it was great fun. Kelly had apparently been planning this for a while...sneaky girl!

thanks to everyone for making my birthday in japan special. and thanks to all the internet folks at home who remembered and sent some love. you guys are the best. i'm so lucky to have such great friends!
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