October 1st, 2002

i'm good!

I ask you to imagine, but no one could possibly imagine...

Can you imagine what it is like to physically see and feel what otherwise would only be metaphor?

Can you imagine being boiled down to your very essence, and finding yourself there when you aren't you anymore?

Can you imagine living in any moment but now and now and now for always and onward which will always be now?

Can you imagine how much more there is in just being able to share it as best you can with the people you love?

Even if you could, it wouldn't be the same. And that's what makes it beautiful.
  • Current Music
    The Flaming Lips - All We Have Is Now
i'm good!

In the meantime....

I'm a short term worrier, I've discovered. I'm far more worried about the immediate now than I am about the future. I feel as if the future is something I don't have to worry about...whatever happens is what is going to happen when that time comes. Now is the only time I can operate in, though, and that's the time I worry about. I fear not getting reports done in time and missing friend's parties far more than the course of my life and career. I'm more concerned about how I I do care about school, so I suppose that's a kind of long term worry, but I feel it's very focused on what I have to accomplish in this or that class, rather than what I need for my degree.

This weekend, it was interesting to see even those worries melt away for just a while. I saw how other people were worried, and that was the only thing that disturbed me.

Are you a long term worrier or a short term worrier? Are you neither? If you are either type, what is it you worry about, and why?
  • Current Music
    David Bowie - 11 - The Voyeur of Utter Destruction (As Beauty)