Mary Ellen, you're not a bad person. But you're right - people won't accept sorries forever. You may feel like you're constantly fighting a losing battle, and you're right. Life is a constantly losing battle. But there are so many more rewards. Have any of your true, close, real friends left yet? Have any of us stopped accepting you? We all have faults. Not a single person on earth is allowed to blame another for something that they cannot help. Mistakes will always be made, and, while it is better not to make them in the first place, no one can keep from doing that all the time. Accept that it's hard, and that you're not perfect, and you're not always going to be able to be SuperGirl and do everything, and it's easier to accept things when you screw up. Don't worry too hard about it, and don't ever take it to heart too much. Because if someone cares about you, it won't matter in the end.

If you ever feel like talking in person, ring my cell, and I'll call back. I don't even need to pick up or anything...caller ID is a wonderful thing. I'm always here for you, little sister, even if it kills me that I can't always be here in person for you.

Kate

Reading this really pissed me off. Maybe we'll talk about it sometime, but most likely not. Your email server seems to neglect mail from people whose addresses begin with S and end with wingGrr. Later (though probably not).

You can be such a goofy bastard, sometimes. Why don't you just get on with it like everyone else? Just forget high school ever happened. It apparently disturbs you even now, so just don't think about it until the very memory is as foggy as a half-remembered dream.